Three months. Three fucking months, and I'm so behind schedule, it's scary. And no end in sight.
For one day of work (in this case, two hours max) I have to rest for about three days - if I'm lucky, and the line between being ok and overdoing it is really, really thin. And by now both arms are pretty much busted; there's just so much a left arm can compensate for if it's not used to it before it goes bye-bye itself.
SNAFU.
I promised myself at least two full days of rest, but I am already getting impatient; desperately trying to find something to do that will not aggravate my arm and hand any further. So I caught up on a little paperwork, which I now have already finished, despite trying my best to do it slowly.
The worst part is that I am not sure how long it will take until I can return to painting, and I had hoped to get the small dwarf figurines ready for sale within the next couple of days. That's not gonna happen. I suppose I will be able to do an hour of painting each day in a few days, but I don't want to cause any permanent damage, so... we will see.
I have a few other things in mind that may bridge the involuntary hiatus from painting and sculpting, and I am sure some of it will help in developing the idea I have. So, despite being a little frustrated and bored right now, I am also hopeful that I'll be able to return to the work I love doing.
In about a week my new website will go live, and hopefully shortly thereafter my shop as well. After sort of dreading to take this last step, a pulled muscle in my back sort of rendered me useless in terms of performing craft work, so I was bound to the chair anyways. And so I finally decided to tackle the task of setting up my new website.
I have been working towards this day for over a year; sculpting, molding, casting, learning how to best paint the casts and generally never ceasing to learn things surrounding this subject.
And while I am very glad that soon things will be online, I am truthfully dreading this day just as much. It is not really a surprise, as sculpture is something that I love to do and would love to keep doing for as long as I can. Having the opportunity to get my artwork out to people is a great feeling, but it of course opens up a completely different floodgate at the same time: criticism, or worse, indifference from other people.
However, I need to do this to know what will come off it. And so I will embrace this new beginning, including all the fear of failure as well as ecstatic feelings that come with it.
No pain, no gain!